my mum and dad split up when i was 11, i chose to live with my dad. a few years after he met my stepmum(although they never got married i still refer to her as my stepmum) she moved in with me and my dad along with her 2 children, my stepsis and stepbro. all was well until i began to see the real side of my dad, im the one who argues back with him and sticks up for others, especially mu mum as he always bad mouths her and she never even does anything. well this resulted in me moving out to my mums with her and my sis, its so much better here, i feel sorry my step family being with him, its not going well at the moment, he is constantly nasty to my step mum, everyone tells her she should get out, we're awaiting that!!!!! i have a terrible past with relationships, im so predictable! what happens is i tend to like people for years in a row, i always like someone a lot for a while and never actually get to go out with them, then i meet people when im out and stuff and like them so result in exchanging numbers then the next day im like omg i dont like them so think to myself no i dont wanna meet them and never do, recently i met someone while i was out and liked him then the next day it happened. i thought i didnt like him so at the weekend he was out round town and he didnt know i was out, i said i was working coz i didnt want to see him but i was in a club when i saw my ex, now i dont like him but he was with someone and i thought i wanted to make him jealous coz i know he still likes me after over a year, so i rang this lad(adam i'll call him) and told him to meet me, now when he came i actually liked him, so i would never have seen him again if i didnt want to be evil! but we havent met since, he's always busy and its just sod's law that i actuall like him and it looks like it wont work out. last year was the year from hell for me, all with my dad happened and nobody was on my side, ha they all see what he's like now dont they. i went and got myself pregnant, it was my first time with the lad i was just on about i wanted to make jealous, we dint use anything and i didnt tell him it was my first time, i of course realise how stupid it was. i had an abortion, its the worst experience of my life, i'd rather give birth than go through it again, the operation is horrible, if any of you want to talk if you'r in a similar situation please talk to me, even tho my actions havent been good. that was over a year ago now, this year has been better tho. i liked someone(i'll call him peter) for 4 years and he liked me too and at the beggining of this year we started to meet up, he had a girlfrind and then dumped her but then realised he liked us both and broke my heart, people told me not to go there but i didnt listen did i? iv moved on now which is good, i though i never would, it sound silly but i couldnt eat for days i was so sad, he messed me around more than iv explained, i have learnt from that mistake and i am stronger for it. well! im a little chatterbox arnt i? |
