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FUCK IT ALL FUCK THIS WORLD, FUCK EVERYTHING THAT YOU STAND FOR, I DON'T BELONG, OR EXIST, I DON'T GIVE A SHIT, DON'T FUCKING JUDGE ME!
Journal: Today is May 11, 2001
Well, I am at school. This place sucks. It's full of rude annoying people that think they are on top of the world, but really are only scum on my sole of my shoe. I am not saying i am high and mighty, b/c i am a SPED. I am stuck in the back of the school in a trailer all freakin' day. They let me out for 2 class periods, and they assigned my to classes with ugly mean teachers that belittle stupids and kiss the administators asses. I hate this place. Sometimes i wish it was shut down.
Any ways, Shawna and I are not friend, what else is new. One minutes she wants to be friends and the next minute she doesn't. I don't understnad. Well, i got 10 minutes to get the hell out of this stupid computer lab, so peace.
Journal:today is May 20th, 2001
My birthday is in 23 dayz. I feel like total shit to. i don't know what the deal is, but i feel awful. i feel like someone threw a brick against my head and knocked me out. it's all cloudy and shit. any ways, i went to this club on Friday night till 12am. it kicked total ass! i went with some friends. we danced ALLL night with this hot gay guy.lol. any ways, i am sore as shit now from all the dancing. my calf mucusles feel like there gonna fall off. it hurts to freakin' walk. i got suspended from school. i told my teacher i would kick her ass so now i am out till Tuesday. but i don't care...school sucks a fat one any way, FUCK SCHOOL!
Oh one more thing, i was put in EBD special education b/c i tried to kill myself and i am emotional distressed. But they said i MUST stay in there to get the suport and comfort i need. but they don't do shit for me in there. they suspened me every other week for stupid shit. omg i had a fucking lighter to light cigarettes with. it's not like i had cigs on me, i just had a light. what am i gonna do with it? burn the fucking school down? God, this school system needs to get a life....an fast.
May 22,2001
Tomorrow is my b-day. I feel so depressed. I worked my ass off to get a's and b's and i FAILED MY FUCKING exams! I made a 60 and a 27. Yipie. what else it new right? I always fail. I am a fucking failure. any ways,3 years ago on this date i tried to kill myself. since i didn't succeed, i said, "fine, when i turn 16...i'll do it!" look, otomorrow i will be 16. but i am not gonna do it. no way, i am to big of a chicken. my mom is being such a penis! I have been told all my life, "when you are 16, you can date". I found this hottie guy that i have TONS in common with and now she's won't even let me tlak to him. what the fuck-o? what ever! fuck it all, fuck this world...it's a shitwhole!
May 26th, 2001
I hate feeling leftout and alone. It sucks!My brother has been telling me ALLLL freakin' day he would take me to the mall to get the NEW Stained CD called Breakcyle.And whatdoes he do? He invites 4 other people to go. And he gets his friend to bring his convertable too. And it just so happens, "oh, no! NO ROOM for lil Jessica!". ARRRGH! I hate his selfish conceided shit! It pisses me off. I want to snap his neck right now. All he cares about is his self and repuatation. THe world MUST WORSHIP HIM! Everyone thinks he's this big time awesome guy with a great personality and heart and all he is, is a wolf in sheets clothing. that's all! He's so ungrateful. he invites himself to my b-day party and he goes to it and then he forgets about the deals he made with me today. He comes home from college and except us to cleanup after him and do his washing and everything, but GOD FORBID he helps us out. GOD! He pisses me off! |
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