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| May 3, 2000 It has been a long time, I apologize. Life has been involved lately and this site has been ignored. Totally ignored. Well, quick update for any of ya'll who give a damn about my love life: Jason and I are still together, 6 days until our 6 month anniversary. Yay! I love him. But sadly I've given up on another responsibility in my life. This site. Sorry guys, I'm not getting the hits I need and truly I don't really see a place for this site in the wide world of the internet. I'm not making a difference nor doing anything different then any one of those homepages you do out there. I will keep this site up incase I decide to go back to it or just for the materials that are on here currently. I know this is falling on deaf ears, but, thanks for supporting me. Thanks to my friends for being there and thanks to my enemies for helping this crap website end! Good luck with your futures, and thanks to maxpages for. . . well for hosting me I guess. Ta ta Zabbit January 29, 2000 ok I'm scared, people may actually see this page now! A club from school, the acceptance coalition, is going to link to me on their site. Oh my I might have to clean up all of the trash that I have around to make it presentable! or not, I'm lazy Well this week was midterms, not too exciting. I probably aced the math and failed the earth science. Well tomorrow's the super bowl, ha I don't even know who's playing. Life's sucked lately. Things get so complicated, you know? But for some reason I just don't care about anything anymore. I feel this calm inside that can't be healthy. I don't know how to describe it. Well anyway it's really late, actually now that I check, it's tomorrow. Which is today, well whatever. Anyway my parents are on a mission to get me up every morning way too early, so I have to go! buh bye January Something Or Other, 2000 No school today, hey you never know, I may get inspired and do something to this site! January 19, 2000 I have a headache. I stayed home "sick" today. I say that because I lied about my illness. Hey I can act, it's a skill. How do you think I keep my sexuality in secret so well? Well next week is midterms, *shivers*. Work is piling up in school, teachers are finally deciding they should actually attempt to teach us some shit. Fun. Well I'm going out with Jason, AGAIN! Yeah yeah I know I'm a wuss. If you guys could only understand what an amazing guy he is, we're good for eachother. He is afraid of this website though, he refuses to come here. Wuss. Well I'll get that skinny wussy boy's ass in here eventually. I met this gal Heather, she's cool. She's from around here, but we met online, through www.planetout.com . She also has a website you guys would like, it's really good, unlike mine. She actually knows how to use html, unlike me. I like maxpages darn't! (For all of you who had no idea what i just said, just smile and nod your head and let me ramble.) Well anyway I'll put her site on my fav stuff page so you can see her skill. I'm going to finally put up the archives page tonight, it'll have all the old crap in it. I'm going to also figure out how to use my mom's digital camera, and I'll link to another page with pics on it. Ooo. Well that's about it. Bye now, sign my guestbook, hell if you made it to my journal you owe me that much! January 15, 2000 The year 2000 came and went, have faith if you slept through it, you didn't miss much. I'm sitting here at 12:21 watching Saturday Night Live, it's cool. I have a cold, I'm talking to a friend, and i'm not inspired. Night night. December 30, 1999 Well that co-site isn't looking good, that friend and I had a little spat. Actually life has been pretty crappy lately, I lost the guy I love because he was worried he didn't love me and wasn't treating me well enough. Remind anyone of Dan or is it just me? It's tough to have someone to tell you they don't love you and they don't think love exists. Well check out my new page, NEW STUFF, it's everything I find in the news or information that I think is cool or important. Ahh yes I will be adding an ARCHIVE to this site. Pretty much in the archive will be all old journal entries from too far back, news articles that no longer really apply, and anything else that is outdated. If I have some free time today I'll do that. Love you guys. December 10, 1999 My computer keeps dying. Everyone pray for my computer. I'm thinking I'm going to be starting a new page which will work along side ZABBIT. It will be created by a friend who helps with this site. It won't be entirely based on homosexuality like this site is, so many of you may appreciate it more. Check back here for the latest info on how this brainchild of ours is going! My life has been pretty decent lately, I have midterms coming up soon enough and I'm scared. This is my first year of midterms and regents. Love you guys December 5, 1999 I've discovered a way to get more hits. Everyday I'll wander into a chat room, whether yahoo or aol, and I'll write little messages and then links to this site. For everyone who knows me and this site, you know how much trouble it's been to get the message out. So anyone reading this, help me along! Tell your friends, tell you family, tell your teachers for all I care. GET THE WORD OUT! ZABBIT HAS ARRIVED! December 4, 1999 YAY BABES!!!!!!! I'm so proud of you! Ok, for all ya'll who aren't in my head, a close friend of mine all of a sudden admitted his sexuality, both to himself and ME!!!!! YAY YAY YAY! Ok I'm nuts. I think that anyone who gathers the courage to do that really rocks! Anyone who's pondering their coming out thang, go with my pal's attempt. YAY YAY YAY! November 26, 1999 Forgive the gap between entries, my computer was dead for a good month. How I missed my glowing screen. Well let's see here, the whole Dan thing was kind of sad. I remain totally confused about the whole thing, what I really felt for him, you know? Was what I felt trully love? What the hell is love? How do I know I'm in love? I've passed over it for now. I really enjoyed being in the relationship, but I know I was mistreated in the relationship, and I'm disgusted with myself for letting it continue for so long. So I've moved on. I've noticed the lack of hits on this site, it's kind of sad. Makes all this work look so damn pointless. So I've come to a conclusion. Through the next couple days I will make many severe changes, try to fix up all the dead links and clear up some construction. From then on it's all up to you, my "fans". If you would, sign my guestbook with your comments/questions/suggestions. Mainly, whether or not it's worth the effort to maintain this site. So have fun, please do sign so I don't feel alone. Thanks ya'll October 21, 1999 He broke up with me. ouch I loved him, and I guess he didn't feel the same way. He doesn't really know why he broke up with me, I'm sure he has reasons but at the moment it's just that he didn't want to be in a relationship. He made these nasty comments like all we were was "fuckbuddies" and that he thinks he never loved me. I've never cried so much in my entire life. God it hurts. The thing is I love him. I can't just stop it all of a sudden. He wants to be friends, haha I can't even get near him without wanting to cry. I love him. There are many guys trying to pounce upon me, those who wanted me to break up with dan for them. I just want DAN!!!!!!!!! my life is complicated, and dan is gone I've never hurt so much never ARE YOU LOOKING FOR AN OLDER DATE? CHECK THE ARCHIVES! www.maxpages.com/zabbit/Archives |
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